for louie

"Everything I Have"

I feel like I never measure up to who you see
Sometimes I think I can't give you all the love you need
You keep changing everyday
Amazing me in everyway.

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I never dreamed I could ever feel the way I do
I hope and pray I will always be enough for you
I can only do my best
I have to trust you with the rest

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything I have

I promise I will hold you through the changes and fears
When life seems unclear
And when I can't be right there with you
I know there's angels by your side

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything

If I could be the perfect man in your eyes
I would give all I'm worth to be a part of your life
I could promise the world but it's out of my hands
I can only give you everything... I have

i used to send him this text message over and over again. it goes:

stay. no why's, no how's, no promises.

just stay.

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i've been trying so hard not to think too much of the things that are happening becuase you are important to me. but you are making things so hard for me....

you have to grow up. your circumstances are different now. do not make it seem easier for you at our expense.

i hate to think that this will cause a rift between us, but recently, i am finding it hard not to hold a grudge against you.

i am building a wall because it is the best thing that i can do to make you see things in perspective.

i'm sorry.

thanks to you

a little appreciation goes a long way.

i'm fortunate to have a man who never takes me for granted and who appreciates the things i do for him.

he knows and acknowledges my efforts.... hays...

aint it good to be young and in love? hehe

फमिल्य pishurs

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ang nakaraan...

sana di na natin kelangan pang mag kunwari.

wala namang saysay yun.

walang katuturan.

walang mababago, walang mag iiba kung patuloy pa rin tayong sasayaw sa indak ng musikang matagal ng natapos.

may bagong saliw na ang musikang sinasayawan ko, alam natin yun.

di mo naman kelangan pang mag kunwari e.

may mga bagay na nananatiling nag uugnay sa atin.

dahil minsan, sabay tayong umindak at nakisayaw sa saliw ng musika.

masakit isiping hanggang ngayon, pinipili mo pa ring mag kubli sa likod ng mga ulap..

simala't sapul, alam kong ikaw yun.

tama na.

tapusin na natin ang pag kukunwari.

- got this from my email. wrote it when someone from my past couldn't help himself from meddling from my own affairs. foolish git. -

Louie and me, flirting with life.

sa mga nakakakilala sakanya, sakin o samin, oo kami. matagal na. daming problema but we 're still together.

ako si y constant nya. yun yon.

daming in doubt sa kung ano ba at kung san ba papupunta ang relasyong ito. well, i stopped caring what other people think a long time ago. mas importante sakin na we care for each other and that we still wanna be together.

ako si y constant.

wishful thinking

i am at this point in my life where i do not know where i am supposed to go or what i'm supposed to do. i'm just letting life pass me by because i cannot find a meaning or a purpose that makes my life worth living.

i know i don't make sense. it's just that, i feel like something is missing. i cannot pinpoint what that is... it's just that, life is so dull and meaningless...

maybe, when i go home and be with my family even for just a few days, maybe that will make me see things clearly. maybe that will make things clearer. maybe by then, i can already see things in perspective.

maybe

at lunch

been blog hopping since i got here and these are the things that i realized:

oo, may mga sugat na kahit alam kong masasaktan ako ay pinipili ko pa ring kinakalikot. hindi dahil sa masokista pero dahil ito ang tanging paraan para maramdaman kong nasasaktan din ako. para makayanan kong balikan ang nakaraan. isang nakaraan na bamagat masalimuot ay totoo.

na minsan, hindi masamang haluan ng kulay ng ilusyon at panaginip ang ikot ng buhay. bakit? upang punan ang kakulangan ng buhay. nang sa gayon, kahit panandalian ay naranasan kong making masaya, umibig, mabigo, at umibig muli.

na sa buhay na 'to, isang malutong na tawa't halakhak ay maari ng maging simula ng isang bagong saliw ng musika.

na sa bandang huli, ang tangi nating magagawa ay ang umibig ng lubos at tanggaping hindi natin hawak ang ating kapalaran.

na hindi lahat ng mahal natin ay mamahalin tayo.

na hindi lahat ng gusto nating makasama habang buhay ay mannanatili sa tabi natin.

na ang tangi nating magagawa ay mag pasalamat...

na minsan sa ating buhay ay may nakilala tayong pinag alayan natin ng totoong pag mamahal.

na kahit ano pa kaikli ang samahang yon, naramdaman natin kung pano magmahal ng lubos...

faith

There are things in life that I can never control. As hard as it may be for me to accept it, I have no other choice but to give in. I have to.

Coz now, I do have faith in us.

Coz time and time again, you’ve proven to me that I will always be that one person that you come home to.

That is enough for me to believe in what we had, what we have and what we will have.

Yes, I know now that somewhere, somehow, our paths will cross… again. That is inevitable. This is the only thing that makes me look forward to tomorrow. That another day brings me closer to that day that we will be together again.

For now, I will be content with this because I know that you still have to carve your own destiny, your own path in this world. I will be satisfied in the thought that although I am not by your side, I am your greatest ally. That I will be cheering you every step of the way.

I love you. That is reason enough. For what? For everything.

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nagmahal kasi ako

nakakatuwang isipin na ngayon, sa kabila ng kawalang paliwanag sa lahat ng mga nangyayari samin ay nakukuha ko pang ngumiti.

siguro nga'y kahit papano ay natuto na din akong makiayon sa agos ng buhay. isang pag ayon at pakikibaka na may kaakibat na pag unawa, pag tanggap.

marahil ay may naikintal na din saakin ang mga mapait na karanasang iyon.

ang puso ko? patuloy pa ring tumitibok at nakikipag laban sa mga bagay na pinaniniwalaan. naninindigan sa kabila ng pag tutol ng napakaraming bagay. siguro nga'y kelangan ko lang maging matatag.

mahal ko e.

sapat ng dahilan yun upang ituloy ang nasimulan.

saan man kami patungo, mabigo man ako, taas noo kong masasabi na ginawa ko ang lahat. na nakipag sapalaran ako. na minsa'y kinalimutan ko ang sarili ko para sakanya.

ganun ako mag mahal. sobra sobra.





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what if

a good good friend asked me something today. it made me think of the other possibilities other than a life with ogl.

scaryness, but it's a possibility.

basta ako, i would want nothing more than a life with him. it's now a forgone conclusion that i am head over heels in love with that man. without a doubt, i am besotted beyond belief.

but what if nga di ba? what would i do?

i'd always follow my heart. where ever this may lead me, i will concede and go with it. always.

for now, what i can say is, no matter how weird our situation is i'm staying. for how long? as long as i can. mahal ko e.

the what if's?

laters.





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im back... for good

i asked him to give me some space for a few days so that i could get my act together...

actually, i texted him that i would not be texting or calling him for a few days.

he had no choice. i already made the decision to do so.

lately kasi, i feel like i am on the verge of just giving up on him, on everything we've had or will ever have. i feel exhausted that it me not feel things anymore.

i don't like not feeling things. i depend on those feelings completely...

i haven't done anything like this before... the i need space kind of thing... but i think i am doing the right thing. it feels right.

right now, i am evaluating the things between us. i am trying to step out and look at it in a different perspective.

one thing is for sure. i don't want to lose him.

i still care.

i'm still willing to fight for that "something" we've had.

i don't wanna give up on someone who can make me feel like this coz it's not everyday that i meet a person who can make me enjoy and love a rollercoaster ride.

it's not everyday that i meet a person who knows me inside and out and still wants me.

it's not everyday that i can meet a person who can make me feel what i feel right now.

puso puso

WHEN IN DOUBT, DON'T.

i have told this very same thing to a lot of friends who's in the exact situation i am now. and every time i tell that to them, i always say it with conviction. may angas factor.

is he really worth it? can i still trust him?

i have so many doubts... but still, i can't find the strenght to forget him... or to leave him.

i found it easy to forget iris. i was able to date other people soon after we broke up. i can't say that the reason behind that was i had someone "special" back then. the truth is, i have some of them who keeps me... well, let's just say i have some people around who makes me feel really special.

it's just that, i can't find in the things i'm looking for in them. something's missing. something's not right.

but when i am with him, IT FEELS RIGHT.

maybe what i'm trying to say here is, although we do not have a perfect relationship, there's no one else like him. that there's no one else i really want to be with but him.

maybe time will come when i would get over him... or forget him... or get over him.

but that time has still to come.

coz as of now, he's the only one i want.

if this does not work out, at least i would be able to say that i did what i had to. more than i had to.

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got these pics at my lil sis's multiply. hehe aren't we gorgeous?! tse!

go go go fight fight fight

“Have the courage to love one more time… always one more time.” -boy abunda-

I am the living example of that quote.

Never put yourself in a situation wherein you’re not sure where you stand or what you’ll get in the end.

I have put everything at stake for this chance to be with him… again.

If it had been another man, I know I would’ve turned my back and would never look back.

But you see, he is not just another man. He is THE man. MY kind o’ man.

He’s the kind of man that moms warned their daughters about.

Scary?

Maybe.

I’m challenged.

I like it.

I love him.

Comments? Suggestions? Violent reactions?

Tse!

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gotta make up my mind.

i'm so confused.

sometimes, it overwhelms me.

sometimes i just wanna forget it all and just move on.

sometimes it's so hard to think of anything else except him... us.

damn.

gotta make a decision.

it's consuming me.

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(98 degrees and stevie wonder)

"...Why second guess
What feels so right
Just trust your heart
And you'll see the light...

...Open your eyes
Your heart can tell you no lies
And when you're true to your heart
I know it's gonna lead you straight to me..."

trust your heart... trust your heart... trust your heart....

i didn't give up. now he's here again. i love him. but i'm scared....