letting go

- Get Your Own


To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short

------ author unknown



letting go is easier said than done.

malapit nako mag-graduate sa masters degree ko sa letting go ko na course. sa ganda ba naman ng performance ko, i think i will be a laude.

the first time i let go of someone, it was because he took me for granted. i think, he thought that since i did love him, i will always be there for him patiently waiting. i did wait. but, i found out that waiting for someone you're not sure will come back, or for someone who's really not worth the wait... well i moved on. said buh-bye and flipped my hair. ha!

the second and most recent happened because, as he put it in his own words 'ayaw nya akong madamay sa magulo at masalimuot nyang mundo sa ngayon.' kesyo i have no idea daw how much he wanted to beg and plead for me to take him back. chorva chorva chorva. when all was said and done, he did not come back.

so i did what i had to, let him go ... again.

i really didn't want to. i was holding on to what he said. kaso, it's so hard to hold on to something na walang kasigaraduhan. kasi kahit xa mismo, di nya alam kung ano ang gusto nya. or kung gusto nya pa ba ituloy.

i can deny it all i want and with conviction pa na i'm over him na. pero ayoko naman gawin. bad mag sinungaling.

coz the truth is, im still waiting for him. im still hoping na someday babalik xa. that i still love him.

ewan ko ba. lagi na lang kami ganto. lagi na lang unfinished business and drama.

pero kahit na i still have feelings for him, it doesn't mean na im closing my doors na to other people. im not. yun nga lang, im not yet ready.

kakapagod din kasi. sobrang emotionally drained nako. kelangan ko muna mag pahinga. tsaka naman ang kwentuhang puso. pag kaya ko na ulit mag mahal.